Since I wrote about looking for a new place to live, I thought I’d post an update on what Miriam and I have decided to do.  After searching for a new apartment and coming up short financially, we’ve taken our mother up on her offer of moving back home.  For now.  A few things about this decision:

1) We are not freeloaders.  Not that it’s anyone’s business, but since I graduated from college, I’ve always paid my way.  I’ve always paid some sort of rent (at times more than others), but it’s been enough to cover extra expenses in the household. 

2) I’m thankful to have a parent who is willing to help me out when times are tough.  Thank you, Mama, for always being there when I need you and for offering to help us out.

3) I’m not looking for anyone’s approval of my situation.  I don’t care what you think.  The fact is this: I have a lot of debt that needs to get paid off.  I’m tired of struggling.  I’m tired of crying over my bills and not being able to make a dent in them.  This situation should help alleviate some of the struggle, and (hopefully) I’ll be able to actually have a life instead of sitting home all the time not being able to do anything because I can’t afford to do anything.

Do I feel defeated?  Perhaps.  Embarrassed?  Maybe a little.  But I’m not above taking help when I need it.  Miriam and I have been calling this a temporary solution to a financial problem.  And that’s the issue here: money.  As it always is.  And moving back home to try to get out of this financial hole is the best decision I can make for myself right now.  It’s been a tough process, but it’s my decision.   And this is the last time I’m going to explain myself because, well, I don’t need to. 

Now we just need a fourth: